Tuesday, March 1, 2011 '
11:15 PM Y
I know, as someone related to you, im suppose to feel joy at your apparent success.
But i dont.
Does that make me a bad person?
Ever since young, we have always been compared to one another.
Be it looks, studies, height, weight etc.
I really truly hated all those comparisons.
I do not give a damn if are prettier / smarter / more hardworking / skinnier than me.
Does that make me a bad person?
Finally i had the chance to outshine you for that short period of time.
Best part of it was, no one else (of apparent importance) exactly noticed or bothered.
For that one time in my life i had something to be proud of, everyone conveniently ignored it.
Now that you have found your crowning success, i bet you the next time we meet, there will be lots of boasting and sneering all over again.
You are generally nice to me and we use to be great playmates as children, yet i think that i sort of hate you.
Does that make me a bad person?
Sometimes, i wish we were not related.
I tell everyone that it doesnt matter and that i am not affected.
But everytime you add another success story to your life, i hear another voice telling me that you are way better than i am.
I resent you for everything you achieve.
Does that make me a bad person?