Sunday, March 7, 2010 '
9:23 PM YFinally got to have another LAN REN gathering yesterday.
It was the perfect timing, seeing how YY dajie's birthday is today, GIS dadajie's birthday was last month and AH HWEE dadada jie's birthday was in January.
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAYS TO ALL 3 OF MY JIE JIEs!!
I know its too late to even mention now but hey!
Its not like i didnt wish them on the day itself =)
Just thought it was worth mentioning here now as well.
Before the fateful day (yesterday), AK and i met up to go BIRTHDAY SHOPPING!
Had loads of fun deciding what to buy for each one of them as we wanted every gift in the 'birthday bag' to be personalized in a way.
This was done by purchasing items that reminded the 2 of us about that particular birthday girl.
Seems to be a ritual for a LAN REN gathering to include singing K.
Teo Heng at Katong seems to be the number one choice for them since i let them do all the planning and we always end up there.
No complains though.
The place can be a little cramp but for the low price, i think its totally worth your money.
Seems like im really getting out of touch with mandarin songs.
Used to be abreast of all the latest mandarin songs when i was in TPJC for that one year because the LAN RENs will keep me updated and posted.
But ever since i went to Shanghai, English songs are what fills my itunes and so, it is no wonder that i feel pretty lost when we first started out.
My jie jies quickly noticed rather quickly that i was unable to join in the singing and so, they started choosing the 'older songs' (meaning those that were released in 2007 or so) so that i can actually take part in the singing.
It wasnt really a problem though..
To me, i was contented enough just being able to spend time with them and listen to AH HWEE jie and YY jie squabble.
Reminds me of the old days where the highlight of the school day would be spending time with the rest of the LAN RENs and having the time of our lives.
Had a scrumptious STEAMBOAT dinner and was so full and bloated after that that i couldnt even bear the thought of food itself.
Dinner was a pleasant affair with lots of chatting and laughter.
Love the stories that they shared with me with regards to their working experience =)
I know that its pretty dumb for me to even think about such things but i cannot help feeling that there is some sort of barrier between YOU, YOU and me.
True, you guys still regard me as part of the group and call me out for gatherings and stuff but did you all ever realise how LITTLE you actually speak to me in the process?? I might be way sensitive of this because its what im the most afraid of.. growing apart from one another.. but then i realise that its just happening with me. The rest of you are still as chummy as i remember you guys to be. Seems like that 1 year in JC2 that i missed DID put a strain on our friendship. Nothing too serious but bad enough for me to feel the hurt at times. I really really do miss the times where we use to be able to talk about everything under the sun and now, all it seems like you all dont really want to talk to me? Or it might just be because out of the 5 of us, YOU and YOU were the ones who were the least close to me since we were not given much chances to be alone together. Not to mention the extra bond that you all formed after the A levels where you all went to work in pairs.
I am not surprised at the outcome.
Just wished that it could be different somehow.
Thank you all for the great times.
I wish i could tell you guys how i really feel but im afraid that will do more harm than good.
No point thinking over unhappy stuff.
I shall just focus on the joy the outing brings me, not the doubts.
Every good thing has to come to an end and so,
as what AH HWEE dadada jie said
'See you all when i see you again'
Till then.
Take care LAN REN men =)
PS. ALL THE BEST FOR THE UNI APPLICATIONS!!
Let me know the results when you all get them =)
xxx meishan
