JUST FEEL LIKE FINDING A HOLE TO LIE IN AND DISAPPEAR.
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i think hamlet is influencing me too much. I am even starting to think like him. IOC today was a disaster in my opinion. May be due to my high hopes and expectations. The feeling of not meeting your expectations suck to the maximum. I cant even talk properly now. Stupid astrophysics is becoming mush in my brain.
I promised myself that i will not write a single vulgur word either on paper or anywhere else. But the temptation is getting to much for me to resist.
One day, i may just do it.
"To be or not to be, that is the question" - Hamet, Act 3 Scene 1 can be interpreted as, "TO LIVE OR NOT TO LIVE."
Thats what literature has taught me. Read between the lines.
Im crapping now. Im being a moronic idiot. But who cares? Im pissed. Everything in life is so unfair. I do all the work and people just get it with a stroke of a photocopying card.
I must learn how to say no. I must learn how to refuse people. I must learn how to stop bothering about other people's feelings since no one cares about mine. I must learn how to protect myself, why am i torturing myself because i am going to help someone else?
Urgh. Officially in stage 1 of mental breakdown. Moving on to the next stage.
yOuRs TrUeLy
The name is meishan.
Now officially 18 years old =)
Part of the WONDERFUL FIRST GRADUATING CLASS 2009 of Dulwich College Shanghai.
Currently enrolled in NUS.
CravingsY
~ Everyone whom i love and care for to remain healthy and happy
~ Not be at the bottom of my faculty
~ Get to travel to GREECE, VENICE and ROME
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 ' 9:22 PM Y
